Last night was the first time since the beginning of the
coronavirus crisis that I actually, really, gave in to feeling frightened and
despairing. I didn’t have the greatest day trying to entertain my two children
and the prospect of having to do that on repeat for three months is mildly
terrifying. When Boris Johnson made his announcement – even though, perhaps, we
all knew it was coming – my stomach lurched and my head started burring and
whirring at a million miles an hour. Mostly with selfish and unhelpful
thoughts. Was my amazon order going to come? What qualifies as essential shopping?
How do I choose between going for a run myself and taking the girls for some
exercise? How hard is it going to be to not hug my mum for three months?
And then, this morning, this from St Paul: “Finally,
brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right,
whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is
excellent or praiseworthy, think
about such things.” Philippians 4:8
How we experience these next few months is going to depend
almost entirely on what we allow ourselves to think about.
Trying to get a handle on our own thoughts processes is no
easy feat. I am struggling. My mind is half in the bible and half on my Tesco
order. But Paul’s advice here is so practical. Pick some stuff that is helpful
to think about and let that so occupy your mind that other thoughts are driven
out. I listened to a brilliant podcast earlier in the week from Bridgetown
Church about what it means to “take captive every thought” (2 Corinthians
10:4). We are not at the mercy of our minds. It’s going to take a little
practice but we can focus our
attention on what is going to help us to flourish rather than what is going to
depress us and make us anxious. How else do you think Paul was able to claim –
whilst chained up to a prison wall – that he had learned the secret of contentment? (Philippians 4:11)
And so, what’s the list? What are we meant to think about in
these uncertain and frightening times?
Whatever is true… for those of us who are following Jesus,
we need to remind ourselves today of what is ultimately true. That God is good
and loving and present in the midst of a crisis. That we are not abandoned and
isolated but we carry the gift of the Holy Spirit. That we have been set free
by the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ even as we feel trapped in our
homes. That every single moment of this day is an opportunity to commune with
the living God and celebrate the life that we have in Him.
Whatever is noble… There is a lot of nobility on display in
our world right now. There are many dedicated members of our NHS and community
who are sacrificing time, energy and even their own health for the sake of the
rest of us. Let us focus on them today. Let us pray for them and for all that
they are doing. Let us pray for every single doctor, nurse, carer and frontline
worker to know the peace and presence of God.
Right… If you are anything like me, the compulsion in this
moment is to think about all the people who are not doing the right thing and get increasingly wound up by
it. I have seen so many Facebook statuses berating others for their failure to
adhere to social distancing. So many angry and exasperated posts focusing on
what others are doing wrong. This is not helpful. We cannot control the actions
of others. We can only control our own actions and response to what we have
been asked to do. There is no point fixating on all those who will not do the
right thing at the moment. Focus instead on the bravery and beauty of every
person who is trying to do what is right: who is home-schooling even though
they don’t know what they are doing; who is working from home whilst
entertaining a toddler; who is refusing to stock-pile even though they feel
scared; who is trying hard to stay connected with friends, family and
neighbours in new and creative ways.
Pure…There is no one more pure than Jesus. He alone is
altogether lovely. He alone is without a negative thought. Without an ulterior
motive. Use this time to look to him. Read your bible. We’re heading towards
Easter. We won’t be able to celebrate it as we are accustomed, but we can still
celebrate the incredible truth of Jesus dying in our place. We can still
celebrate that his blood has washed us clean. That by his wounds we are healed
from all sin and shame. That he who had no sin became sin for us so that we
might become the righteousness of God, that we might become pure.
Lovely… Look outside your window. Look into the face of your
children. Look at the pictures your grandchildren sent you in the post. Look at
the buds blooming in the garden, the flowers pushing up through the soil, the
birds making their nests in the trees. Get yourself off Facebook for a while.
Take a break from the news and social media. Fill your mind up with everything
you love. Distract yourself with beauty. Watch videos of Yellowstone Park or
the San Diego Zoo or Blue Planet instead of videos of panic buying in Asda at
6am. There is so much loveliness around. The sun is even shining for us. Enjoy
it.
I could go on… Paul does…admirable…excellent…praiseworthy...
Now is the moment, when we have to choose how we are going to respond. We have
to get a handle on our minds and what our thought processes are doing to us. I’m
an English graduate so I keep thinking about John Milton’s line from Paradise
Lost, “The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a
hell of heaven.”
These are hellish times. It certainly feels like we are
living in some kind of strange, surreal, apocalyptic sci-fi film that we used
to watch for entertainment. So let us fix our eyes on Jesus today. Let us fix
our minds on him. Let us think about what is helpful to us and to others. And
let us remember that this is going to pass. As a friend of mine posted to
Facebook this morning, there will be a day a beautiful June day in a few months’
time when there have been no new cases of Covid19 for 3 weeks and we can
breathe again. “All shall be well, and all shall we well, and all manner of
thing shall be well.” (Julian of Norwich)
Think about such things today.
Think about such things today.
Hi Nic.
ReplyDeleteThanks for this really encouraging blog. There is such a temptation to dwell on the negative and anxious thoughts that are bubbling away in our heads at the moment. Thanks for reminding me that there is another way.